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Bougie Hippie's avatar

This is exactly what I was before sobriety:

"What I loved was your approval – your attention."

After sobriety: "The gift of loving people is that I become a loving person."

Glad we are on this sober journey together.... x

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

That’s right. Let’s GO!!!

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Jojo Teckina's avatar

Ben you are a gorgeous writer. And so far, to me, it seems, a wonderful human as well! Sometimes it takes a while to get there though, doesn’t it.

Looking forward to more of the story.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

Wow.

Thank you Jojo. I’m doing my best, full of flaws, like anyone, I suppose.

I feel the gravity of the responsibility to take care of everyone I encounter more now than ever.

It’s a tall order but a goal I can reasonably aspire to.

Thank you for taking the time to read, to comment and for your encouragement!

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Neera Mahajan's avatar

Love is not just a four-letter word. It is many things to many people. Thanks for sharing your take on this vast topic.

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Brandy Lynn's avatar

This is so beautiful Ben! As I was reading, I was identifying the ways in which I withhold love in my life today and I feel grateful for people like you who help steer me back. You do radiate love like a lamp ❤️

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Alexandra Victoria Asbury's avatar

Ben.Yo! Your wonderful words and willingness to be vulnerable resonate deeply within me. Thank you for helping me rethink my love losses and try to move on without resentment. Powerful. I think my superpower is resilience. We are traveling similar paths to realize how being loving and kind is free and liberating. Peace out boy scout!

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Crumster's avatar

Good luck! 😉

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Larry Huber's avatar

Good luck.

Sounds like an interesting path your life took. (Or should I say that you took a path that made life more interesting and challenging for you?)

Either way, you emerged with love. That's pretty cool.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

Thanks for reading. There’s only so much time in a day, so I appreciate it.

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Kathleen Hobbs's avatar

Iso very beautiful. In times of my life, I have felt almost all of those emotions.

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Holly's avatar

Loved every word of this. Thank you for putting it out into the world 🤍

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Christopher J. Fritz's avatar

Love is an action, not a feeling — when I understood this I experienced a very similar change to what you outline here.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

Absolutely.

Sometimes the action doesn’t look like action or is simply a decision made internally, e.g. not responding, letting someone “off the hook” when they do something I don’t like, not retaliating, not defending, etc.

And love isn’t always pretty, either. It’s not always easy to discern the loving action and sometimes the action may not appear to be loving to an observer. I have to defer to higher principles and inspiration and possibly even make mistakes.

Thanks for reading!

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Amusings's avatar

Wow!! Nicely done.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

Thank you. It means a lot to me that you took the time, not only to read, but to comment.

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Rae Dwyer's avatar

Gah. Thank you for your honesty. This is so beautiful.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

Thank you. Sincerely.

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Benjamin Sharp's avatar

We will thrive when we do!

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